HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR LAOPO ! =DD
finally the day has come for you (:
blink your eyes andd the year is coming to an end .
she's one of those who have stuck with me LITERALLY through thick&thin .
haas .
thanks alot (:

a happy morning today . haas .
full of GOOD NEWS & BLESSINGS amongst our KUKUPALAS (:
shalini came with herr rebonded hair . WEETS ~
jiamin cut herr hairr & brought her dream phone ! wooots ~
andd i have a new daughterr-in-law ! WAHAHA =DD
also, i believe julia has made the decision for herself (:
& its CHERIE XU SHI HUI's BIRTHDAY !
YAY ! im very happy forr them . reaally am (:
the pages are still turning and a new chapter has began .

a strange & unusual feeling overwhelmed me .
before recess ?
something caused my heart to beat seemingly fast .
REAL fast . even if only for that while .
but why ? nothing exciting happened .
we were then quite HIGH forr awhile .
until i kept catching glimpses of something .
then .. it was like my whole system went ( ' . ' )
i taught of what was said to me yesterday .
what kept us going ?
it seemed like nothing .
it was like i meant nothing to you at all .
not even worth a second of your time.
i wonder whats on yourr mindd at all.

i dont know larhs .
sorry guys . forr the sudden mood swing .
especially when i should have been celebrating with urr .
i tried to control . i reaally tried ):
first time i felt so vulnerable and helpless .
my usual inner strength to make myself think positive .
suddenly abandoned me .
i couldnt find the PAUSE switch .

the afternoon was no better .
was reaally loooking forward to lunch with them .
but sheela suddenly called us to practice .
was kinda frustrated actuually .
wanted to at least TELL them where we were going .
but then .. the same thing repeat lorhs .
then we went with herr .
sorry afiqah ):
sorry jiamin ):
frustration + upset = BOOM !

haiis . dont want to talk about it le ba .
want to put this day behind me .
hm .
FRMPH ! dont want say about the meeting le .
went forr dinner with julia. jiamin and sheela after .
then went to julia's house to try andd think of dance steps .
haas .
very funny . haas .
all ourr kuku and crazy dance steps come out .
most didnt make sense .
mostly futile attempts to roll aroundd the floorr . LOL .
thanks for the cheerr up julia (:

yeaapps .
plan to stay awake all night . FAILED .
haiis . feel reaall badd about breaking my promise to ben ):
everything was goood .
but i fell asleeep as sooon as my alarm rang .
then by the time i woke up . already 7 plus .

half of me wanted to chiong all the way there .
the other half pulled back .
sorry ben ):
i'll definitely make it up !

have to thank timothy t0o .
my new self-esteem b0oster & motivational speaker ! haas .
yeaapps . but really .
thanks alot .
though i still feeel like a suckish friend .
you seem to be able to understand me.
though we only know each other a few weeks . haas (:

yeaapps . then actuually thought of going to his church t0o .
but decided to go with mum they all instead .

we went to farFAR places . haas .
tiong bahru . beach road .
then back to toa payoh . haas .
in the endd . we couldnt find what we were looking forr .
diaoos .

then . we all practically spent every other free time watching the goong .
lol . even qiang watch xD
we were all quarrelling over the characters . haas .

have you ever had the feeling of helplessness ?
seeing the people you love getting hurt over and over .
there's so much you want to do to help.
but youu just dont know HOW .
im afraid i will say the wrong things .
or make the matter worse than it already is .
so yeahh .
sorry juuliia .
i know i havent been able to help you much ):
another example of what a SUCKISH friend i am can .

hm . not planning to sleeep tonight .
as have to wake up SUPER early to go CHC with ben .
haas .
waiting for dad to watch his soccerr finish .
so i cann watch the goong . HEHHE =x

yeapps . anyways .
about the things that happen on friday .
thanks alot julia.
always there to ZAP me back to reality (:
shuni LAOGONG .
it definitely hurts us to seee youu so xinku .
hope that us bringing youu out helped xD
its definitely hard to leave behind something you've held on to for so long .
but .
some things. are really not worth it .
you must tell yourself that you deserve friends who CARE for each other .
if so, going the extra mile will be something unquestioned.
not just criticised .
think about what is best yea (:
life has to go on t0o .
err . ohkay .
dont say so much here . lalas ~
JIAYOU to us !

also .
i know it may seem that im ignorant to what they say .
honestly , it does hurt .
its only natural that it would.
but .
our lives are worth too much to let their criticism flush it all away .
i WONT let them pull down my self esteem .
i WONT let them hurt me with their criticism .
in fact . i respect their criticism .
everyone has a right to voice themselves .
so . they can say all they want in THEIR lives .
and i wont let spoil mine .

NEITHER WILL I LET THEM SPOIL YOURS .
ohkay julia & shuni (:
just make suure we dont become like that .
HEHE .

lalalas ~
for today .
its the last session with MRS STEVE .
phew ~
was SUPERR coldd can .
had to say those CHEERS again . haas .
we also had to sing the national anthem without the music .
lol . superr funny .
yeapps . was a funny lesson .
managed to escape without having to present my non-existent speech .
WAHAHA .
afterr that .
think i ran into pms .
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH ~
kinda got a momentary flash of anger towards my dearr buddy =x
hee . but julia&azureen came andd save the day ! [AGAIN ] * COUGH .
and helped me calm down . lol .
feeel very guilty ba .
i didnt mean to be angry . just was kinda frustrated with her .
especially when things start to get administrative .
but . we all have limits yea ?
its not a ONE PERSON SHOW .

hm .
then we went to walk all overr to buy the stuuff for the india trip .
haas . mostly walking heree . andd walking there .
loook loook loook . hahas .
actuually . kinda forget what happen le =x

quite an emotional church day.
couldnt just leave julia there !
kept having this NUDGE that i should go with her .
so i went . haas .
hoped my prescence wasnt why things turned out this way =x
anyways .
sermon today was about money*

money ITSELF is not evil .
it is the greed and lust for money that is bad .
your money is your LIFE .

just as we freely received from God .
we must freely give away .
our God is the God of more than enough (:
in our times of need , he gave.
pastor kong gave many examples .

also, we have to pledge with the right ATTITUDE.
because, what goes up isnt the material sacrifices .
it is the attitude and faith (:
NO BARGAINING xD
"those who sow in tears shall reap in joy"

on hearing all the real testimonies.
we should never doubt God.
though it may take some time.
maybe even a LONG time .
as long as we pledged with our hearts, God will not overlook it (:

ohkay . i dont be a preacher today .
but, i still cant bring myself into the worship.
i mean , i could feel a sense of enthu-ness.
and i really enjoy worship.
but, i could not feel God's prescence in me .
as i looked all over the room .
andd .. its a REALLLY BIG ROOM .
you cant help feel a sense of isolation.
but . i wont give up !
i dont want to fall away from God anymore .
no more no more .

AFIQAH .
youu t0ok your risk today .
and WOOOTS !
haas . youu should know what i mean yea ? xD
lalalas ~
reaally happy forr you (:

julia (:
i wont go into details in here ba .
later roger seee =x
youu know what i mean yea ?
you deserve much betterr julia (:
things will take time (:
dont bury yourself in negativity.
the world still has to rotate.
dont lock yourself behind the gates of the past .

dad deleted the last post i wrote just a few hours ago .
so .. must write again . hahas.
i honestly dont like to write the same thing twice =x
the feeling neverr seems the same =x

kinda guilty about what i saidd to shoban during the morning's camp meeting .
its the FIRST & LAST time i have said it =x
when i apologised to him .
he said he wasnt angry . still cann laugh and tell me its alright .
diaoo .
hope that he's not angry ba =x

haas . now that i got that off .
today was the .. official last day of schoool ?
not counting out holiday timetable .
didnt reaally have a last-day-of-school feeling though .

we went to our FUTURE CLASSROOM for today .
which is the current 4/9 .
im going to miss the balcony .
DARN !
next year . in order to get some fresh air and scenery.
have to run OUT of the classroom to the corridoor . haas .
also.
we FINALLY got back ourr class photos and report book (:
the rest of the day was pretty much slack-ish.
talk & talk & talk & talk .

& AGAIN with the squeakish straw sound .
& AGAIN with the constant escaping of jap&korean words .
from fiqah and jiamin !
in which we couldnt understand . haas .
so when talking to them . was pretty much a HUH ? xD

when we got back ourr results.
really quite disappointed ba .
it was reaally one of the first times i had a study plan .
did worse than mid yearr .
but managed to jump one class position .
andd .. AGAIN .
mum saidd i xia suay herr in amaths .
as its the only subject i failed =x
42 ? =x LOL .
all jokes aside .
dad says reaally have to buck up on amaths le .
he even saidd that IF we go to thailand .
i have to do amaths .. practically every night ?
* sighs .
NEVER MIND ! must chiong all the way to sec fourr .
then when exam is over . SHUANG xD
im trying to motivate myself with the phrase
"the harder you work. the more shuang youu will feel when exams finally end''
so .. JIAYOU ! =D

but still . after staring blankly at the result slip.
wasnt reaally in the mood to go to causeway .
the results suddenly turned my high mood upside down.
but then .
its beeen awhile since we went out le .
because of all the india stuuff .
andd . my darlings always had a way to cheerr me up (:

sorry lehs .
even afiqah toldd me i was zone-ing out le .
could tell that azureen and they all were trying to make me laugh t0o .
tried my best to SNAP back to the HAPPY PLACE .
AAAHH .

yeapps .
also . felt guilty about borrowing money can )):
because i use my allowance for the death note =x
must make suure it doesnt become a habit . gulps .
we ended sitting in the library .
as aqilah was using the com .
andd fiqah was searching for fairytales .
i dont know why .
but even being NEARR a window .
puts me into reflective mode . haas .
kept thinking of my results .
must findd a way to schedule everything together .
so that wont have to chiong =x
ANYWAYS .
we then went to mac .
where all the BIRDS were =DD
haas .

hm . dont really feeel like typing details today =x
OH YA .
but i must remind myself one thing .
hahas . jiamin's mrt experience xD
dont embarrass herr by elaborating . haas .
all because we made herr take the mrt . lalalas ~
ohkay ohkay . i sshh =x

hm .
i guess its no use to regret and complain about the past .
use it as a stepping stone for the future .
noNO . the present (:
its funny how a small piece of paper could signify SO MUCH =

he shoHEH !
kinda play with the bouncy thingies till i want to BAO le .
so decided to change.

the slideshow thingy is not finished yet .
still waiting forr SOME PEOPLE to sendd me pics .
* STARES .
yesh yesh .
im referring to YOUU !! hahas .

hm .
kinda busy looking national songs .
haas .
blog tomorrow ba xDD
hehee .

FIRSTLY .
my arms still hurt from the injections today =x
lols .
just a little swollen andd numb i guess .
everyone still feeels it . lols .

hm .
yeah . now that i got that out . lalalas ~
we all decided to skip school today .
WITH PERMISSION ! xD
went to westmall to watch deathnote.
haas . niceee lorhs the show .
sharmini got so crazy over L after the show .
she swung herr arm .
BANG ! hit my face . lols .
but yea . when shuai guys get the better of gurls . LOL .
even NOW she still hasnt recovered . lols .
in the endd . the show wasnt as scary as i magines .
but .
the second one .
BIG difference .
scarySCARYscary ! ~
but . must pluck up the courage to watch .
HEHEHEHEH .

haas yeah . then after walking aroundd abit .
julia . mini and i went off to meet the rest at the edinburgh clinic
for the INJECTIONS ! gulps .
we ended up being MUCH earlier than the rest .
so we walked around .

haas . ended up . i became the FIRST to take the medical exam .
after mrs tang .
GULPS .
but the doctorr was super friendly and patient with me =x
that timothy larhs !
kept on scaring me .
reaally make my heart skip beats can !
stupidd kuku .
anyways . he was one of the first in the next room anyways .
so .
timothy : HAH HAH !
anyways .
it wasnt as bad as i thought .
though abit numb-ish . it was quite ohkay xD
im glad its finaally overr . now we can prepare forr india in PEACE ! wahahaha =D
also . the oral thingy .
tasted more like grape soda . YAY !
kinda thought it would be the bitter thing from primary6 .
so . CONGRATS that we all got past this =DD

hadd to leavee the clinic early t0o .
went to makee ic with dad .
cos he had to collect his passport t0o .
lol .
he got super pissedd off when they toldd him he had to wait two andd a half hours .
so he gave up .
nothing much .
we both sat down and read while waiting . haas .

from there .
practically stuck at home .
watching tv with mum and lingg .
lalalas ~

&
on hearing about your actions today.
were you serious ?
how was i supposed to react ?
its like . everything i do .
every decision i make .
the consequences turn badd . especially to the people i hold close to my heart .
and yet .
i cant be there to make things right .
to be by your side .
so . yeahh . w0opeee for the person who ruins everything ):
should i still carry on fighting ?
i have to pray for my imaginary strength lorhs .

ohOH .
i have to tell ur a secret ! =D
the reason why lau junjie goes to basketball xD
becauuse of the coach !
yeshhh .
he secretly had a crush no him .
and realises that by joining basketball .
he would be able to ..
see him .
talk to him .
touch him !
drool over him !
yesh yesh . this is a secret (:

haiis .
cherie .
i really miss the times.
where things were simple .
pain was straightforward pain .
happiness was golden .
now .
things have to make a GIGANTO big fat turn before they SPLAT us .
BUT !
we must make it through step by step .
i dont caree ! (:

haas . kinda blogging for yesterday .
boring sunday =x
didnt go church today though .

SATUURDAY =D

met juulia in the morning to go farr east . AGAIN .
andd .. AGAIN .
i was late =x
hehe . kinda woke up late .
andd had a fuss with mum .
sometimees . they switch from fun to paranoid so quickly .
i cant catch up =x

yeaapps .
outside the salon very funnny . haas .
julia went up at the dooor .
CROWDED again .
so we were actuually intending to walk around first.
then .
as we walked off .
the guurll came running out in herr apron .
andd toldd us that we could cut .
YAY ! =D

haas .
we were thinking of going for the treatment.
maybe during the holidays ?
or maybe next yearr .
haas . seeing if we can save up first .

i ended up cutting the same fringe as the kuku julia .
lalalas ~
funny larhs she .
she kept laughing when the guurll was washing her hair .
then .
the back of her shirt got all wet .
to julia : HAH HAH ! =D
haas . anyways .
we then went our seperate ways after lunch ):
she chased me out of the mrt ! ):
so hurtful rights ? haas .
but NEVER MIND .
xi guan jiuu hao . lol (:

went to meet mum at eunos .
then went to ahyi's house to borrow the winterr clothes .
haas .
sometimes.
i just think adults are abit DIAO .
yeah . i cant find any other word to describe ahyi and mum .
at least eva and ling were on my side .
they asked me whether i wanted to borrow that .
then i saidd no .
then they say . aiyaa . TRY LAAARHS .
they push the clothes to you .
and yet they say the choice is up to you.
but when you say no .
they continue pushing it you anyways .
lol .

so i just kept quiet .
since i realised i had no stand in it anyways . lol .
eva jie was laughing behind lorhs . frmph .

haas . then went back to meet julia at the expo .
introduced to herr cell members .
they're nice (:
haas . but it was kinda wierd how they all walked so suuper far apart .
maybe because its a big cell ba .
but they're all nice and friendly .
especially jenna . roger. jason .. and some forth guy whose name i dont know =\
LOL

the first word i said when i entered the hall .
"WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH" =
its . super super super super BIGG !
haas . reaally made my lose my breath.
could feel my lungs going WAAH as well xD

worship was refreshing .
only knew like .. one of the many songs they sang ?
but i still tried to look at the screen . haas .
it's definitely MUUCH different from coa.
maybe becauuse .
its a MEGAA SUPER BIG CHURCH ? yea xD
as i looked around .
seeing how everyone lifted their hearts and minds to the Lord .
despite how much i wanted to join in .
i simply couldnt .
there was this thin glass casing seperating my heart from theirs.
its impossible to catch overnight ba (:

the sermon was super nice t0o .
shared by pastor kong hee.
"if you look for the supernatural in the spectacular, you will miss God EVERYTIME"
examples like moses. joseph and esther.
he shared that we will be able to find our true purpose in God .
if we look in the secular and mundane lives we live in .
rather than just within the four walls of the church .
therefore.
we shouldnt cut ourselves from the world.
locking ourselves within the four walls of the church .
we have to be out there . amongst the world (:

haas . i dont know how to put all these in words ba .
then we got to eat ice cream . weeeeee !
julia and roger were super exciting about that .
lol .
was actuually looking forward to eat dinner with them .
but then mum asked me to meet herr at ahma house ):
sorry juulia .
also. i was kinda bugging julia to go andd talk to him .
hahas .
but she didnt ):
dont know if she did when i left . lalalas ~

same old same old in ahma's house .
was kinda playing around with the maid .
WAHAHA =D
she cheered ling up loads . i think =x

by the time we reached home .
was about 11 plus le .
still stopped by ahyi's house to take the moisturizer.
haas .

just as easily as a chair being pulled from behind you .
what happens when the thing you rely on for security and support gets pulled away.
you fall .

just a thought .

was supposed to have track today .
andd i tried going early .
haas . was super duper tired .
BUT.
when i entered the gates and walked up to coach .
he said that training was cancelled due to the haze .
DOTS .
zeoul was just as ('.' ??) as me . haas .
yeapps . then had to standd at the gate .
waiting for the rest to come and break the news to them .
haas .
it was kinda entertaining to see their reactions though.
( O.O") yeah . something like that xD

haas .
was intending to wait forr juliaa .
just about the call marcus .
but i went home with tunli. ruiqi and the rest .
LOL .
kinda fell asleeep =x
only to wake up to julia's WHERE ARE YOU call =x
LATE ! haas . so i hadd to CHIONGG down to meet her .
hehe .
superr sorry julia =x
we then went to farr east in hopes of cutting ourr hair .
the place was kinda crowded .
so we went to shop around abit .
haas . mostly talking&walking&looking though .
we darent try on the clothes.
apparently .
imaginary money doesnt work in the real world .
lalalas~

when we went back up.
STILL crowded .
& we were running late to meet fiqah .
so we decided to postpone to tomorrow .
haas .

on the mrt .
we talked&talked&talked .
haas .
BUT .
when we met rashiela and fiqah
we realised that the tickets were sold out le ):
kinda unexpected ba .
finally plucked up the courage to watch deathnote .
haas .
lalala . so thats postponed t0o xDD
probably going to watch it on monday morning . LALAS =D

after that.
julia and i walked around, looking for a salon .
to no avail.
the prices werent worth it ba . haas .
so we went to the arcade !
playedd the ddr . LOLL .
apple was actuually playing in front of me .
but i couldnt recognise her ! lols =x
kuku people playing KUKU game . haas .

i couldnt recognise renee when i saw herr t0o ! lols .
she said that vedd was working at the pizza hut .
but i couldnt see herr ):
too SHORT ! =x heh heh .
something wrong with my EYEBALLS ! ):

hm .
julia then had to go off and meet herr friend peiwen.
its good that she gets to meet and catch up with herr cell members .
but .
DONT THINK TOO MUCH kay julia ? ((:

so.
fiqah. rashiela and i eat & talk & eat & talk .
haas .
AGAIN . laugh until i ROTCH + ROFL .
[HEH HEH jiamin !]
haas .
then . went home with fiqah .
decided to take the longg way andd peii herr home first . haas .
yeahh .
discussed many things .
also planning to expect a major flood from her when i come back from camp .
she's got SOMETHING to bao gao ! wahaha =D

anyways .
though things did not exactly go according to plan today .
ohkay . TOTALLY deviated from plan .
haas .
it was still an enjoyable day.
amongst us .
even the simpliest things can become exciting =D
lols .

i really hope that by going to julia's church tomorrow .
i can restart my personal relationship with God .
i dont want to backslide .
i really dont .
iLOVE GOD .
and everything he has done for me (:
these thought are NEVER going to change .

today :
AMBIGUITY .

haas . something i came across justJUST now (:
just like the haze before us .
it comes and goes.
at times, we may appearr to have the whole pictuure,
only to realise that just as easily,
a haze can bluurr it all up.
blinding youu from the path ahead (:
nontheless,
standing still and waiting for it to clearr before moving on.
or to take the step of faith and press on into oblivion.
the path is still there (:

haas .
ANYWAYS .
post exam activities today (:
played some kuku games.
kinda vomitted a little afterr the games.
A LITTLE .
they say because neverr eat .
hmm ..
im not a breakfast person . LALALA =x
oh wells,
cannot let it happen again ! (:

then . during the break.
some teacher came and ask junjie who i am .
said he mark our english papers de .
GUULPS .
DID I FAIL ?
FAIL REAAL BAD ?
can admit .
the compo . is totally crapp.
i've lost my inspiration to write long detailed stories ):

yeaps . then we had the honour of watching ..
AN OPERA !
haas . junjie and i were laughing at the funny hairr and outfits .
and theirr voices .
ohkay . at least i was xD
dont know about him . LOL
he seemed so engrossed in it .

yeapps . then,
since the library was closed .
we all went to rest at the study corner .
sheela, azureen, zhizheng and kaisheng SLEPT rather . haas .
can tell azureen was tiredd .

hm . yeapps . then azu. zz and i talkTALKtalk .
do i look anime to ur ? O.o
hmm .
SOME people cant take my face seriously -_-"
lalas ~

then .
off to another mrs steveeeeeeee lesson !
haas .
mrs tang let jiamin sit in !
then she dont neeed to wait by herself .
weeeeeeee xD

she started laughing t0o when she saw mrs steve .
andd we thought we had to clap .
haas .
hadd ourr speeches andd stuuff .
and THAT TIMOTHY HORHS !
cheated ! haas . but .. smart larhs .
many got their points cut cos they read from the scripts .
so . timothy decided to put his script on the table in front of him .
put in a niceNICE position .
then readd from there . LOL .
strange enough . mrs stevee couldnt seee .
haas .
we were all laughing ourr heads off (:
practically ROTCH-ing xD
( HAH . jiamin HAH ! i applied the word rotch)

yeapps .
we have to prepare ANOTHER speech now .
mine is on 'my role model'
hmm . quite ohkay ba .
sharmini's is on TERROISM =\
so hard . haas .

yeapps .
then mrs tang's test was next .
andd . since timothy didnt neeed to do research .
he had to CHIONG through ourr info .
lol .
i've neverr seen him so engrossed in the paper lorhs .
cann watch his eyes scan line by line .
haas . funny xD
yeaapps .
andd i realised .
the only thing i know about is .
indira gandhiGANDHIgandhi .
thats the only word flashing through my brain .

lucky enough .
thats what mrs tang ask ! waahah =D
yeah . timothy had a ( ' . ' ??) look on his faceee . ahaha .
hm yeaapps .

when it was FINALLY over .
julia jiamin and i went to buy jiamin's watchh !!
hahas .
she FINAAALLY bought it .
with a discount t0o !
wooots ~
haas . she so happy .
she toook a pic of the phonee .
at 7:12 !
haas . its goood she got it yea (:

lalas .
hadd a nice dinnerr with my family xD
watchedd the hospital with mum and ling .
haas . with jerry -_-"

got NAGGING from quite a few people tonight.
i realise.
life sometimes isnt as simple and shallow as it may appear.
learnt that from timothy . LOLL .
anyways .
if he reads this .
SMILE HORH YOU KUKU .
dont think t0o much (:
sometimes, tolerating and REN-ing.
is not the way to avoid this issue.
be a friend and set things right (:

SHUNI LAOGONG, WEIXIAN,
must be strong andd standd up for yourself yea ? (:
youu have rights t0o yea .

er .
im lost .
caught between the string that lies in between.

went to church today .
weeets .
kinda refreshing actuually (:

then .
went to library to get BOOKS !
wahaha .
no more procrastinating !
so yeah .
dad says i have to catch back on my reading habits .
lalalas ~
nerding here i come ! =D

hm . then went to seee the winterr thingys .
LOLL .
so ex can ! my gosh .
almost $100 lehs .
eeeeeeeeeeshh the india expenses )):
hope doesnt pile up t0o high .
GULPS .
have to keeep track .

yesterday,
as we laughed about our silly past .
and of the kuku shows .
it made me realise that
when im talking with you
nothing else seems to matter &
for that moment.
being myself is enough (:
thanks =D

early in the morning .
woke to find that i fell asleeep while walking to the room yesterday .
LOL

schoolSCHOOLschool .
haas.
hadd this talk on public speaking .
only about 20 of us .
andd shoban brought in a mike .
DOTS !
ourr instructor .
MRS STEVE .
haas . even mrs tang couldnt get it right =x

yeaps .
she made us shout, cheer & talk .
making us write speeches and stuuff . lalas .
yeapps . then, PTM !
haas . kinda kuku larhs .
in the endd, the subsidy covered about half .
SOMEEE PEOPLE dont need pay at all .
*STARES .
hahas.

then had to plan the games with cc they all .
haas .
i findd my prescence there was insignificant -_-"
everything i did was wrong =x
lol .
haa . we cracked our brain to think of games .
all kinds of crap came out .

yeah . in the endd, he pass all to minyi .
then we could go =x

after MEGA LONG YEARS .
i went to mos =D
and OHMYGOSH .
i finally got my vcd back from davin !
haas . he wasnt there .
asked layling yo dig it from his locker . LOL
lalala ~
yeaahh . i have to return my uniform (:
DARN !
was kinda hoping to keeep it as a momento .
HEHE .

yeaapps . then went home and slept =x
WAHAH =x

should i go tomorrow ?
shouldiSHOULDIshouldi ?

POST EXAM ACTIVITIES .
haas .
the 7 habits of highly effective people . AGAIN .
hm .
ohkay larhs . quite fun (:

then . CCKS IDOL .
WOOTS !
my dearest daughter afiqah perform .
wahaha .
but she was kinda nervous .
so we supported her all the way (:
even *** lehs . lalala =DD

hm .
then there was no cca .
SEEEEE . eesh .
so went to meet cherie to go out .
first we went to vivocity .
then . walk here and there .
all adult stuuff .
BUT THEN .
THE OUTSIDE VIEW . SUPERRDUPERRDUPERR nice !!
my gosh .
there was also a super big flower filled treeeeeee !

nicenice .
hehe .
night time must go there . WAHAHAH =x

this pic . gopt from cherie's blog . LALALA =x

we spent the time .
talkingTALKING & talking ! lol
andd cherie's TOES kept cramping -_-"
TOES CAN HAVE CRAMP ? lol .
kuku larhs she .

hm . yeapps .
then we went to sengkang .
haas .
only to buy a drink .
then mel was coming to meet us .
she was like . HUH ? REALLY IN SENGKANG ?
super zillions times to cherie . lol .

so . walked aroundd forr about an hour .
then went to meet herr a orchard .
where we hadd dinnerr .
then my mum come andd scoldd .
say must go home . else im grounded the whole holiday .
hahas .
so .
lalala .
we went back . LOL .
sorry forr making urr come all the way .
then go home =x
HEHE .
but . they were such darlings .
they didnt mind . YAY =D

yeapps . then off on the bus to go home with mel .
she said she will helpp me with my hairr for prom .
YAY ! =DD
she's a pro !

well . forr this trip .
cherie and i spent more on transportation than anything else .
LOL .
so .. we're TOURISTS ? =DD
lalala ~

TO CHERIE :
i got a meh meh yesh i do .
i got a meh meh how about you ?
i got a meh meh yesh i do .
wahaha =D

EXAM FINISH LE !
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
haas .

yeah yeah .
can finally say the word PLAY .
instead of studying !
woots ~
but have to CHIONG in cramming our heads with INDIA HISTORY le ):

hm . yeah .
had indiaa meeting today.
so couldnt go forr ourr bowling ):
hm .
NOT FATED ba )):

yeapps .
well . meeting ended at around 3 plus .
with jiamin waiting at the void deck for us .
for TWOO hours =
diaoooo .

hm .
i guess marcus is right.
when youu think back on how time has flown past.
its like a blink of the eye .
you still remembered our *PROMISE .
wahaha xD
even if it IS one piece of seaweed andd one grain of rice .
thats good enough =D

mum andd dad SHOCKED me .
say treat us go seouul garden .
wahaha .
so ex can !! $113.10 lehs .
oh my gooooooooooshh .
but then , they saidd its worth it .
we coook coook coook .
lauugh laughh laughh .
hahas .
super childish family .
AND HORHS . the guurll in the in front table.
using *THAAAT phone can !
hahas .
dadd just laughh at me .
say that if didnt eat seoul, then got chance to buy .
LOL .
all the rubbish spill out .
haas .
reaally cherish this family dinner (:
great present .
THAANKS ALOT .

also thanks forr all the wishes and present (:
means the WORLD to me =DD
hehe .

but, with happiness also came
HEART STABBING WORDS.
maybe i was being too over-sensitive ?
but, i really dont know what i could possibly could have done .
sorry lehs .
made youu guys worry . hehe .
thanks alot lehs (:

&

im sorry.
reaally sorry.
i know that it took alot for youu to give me that today.
but, im really unsuure now.
i know i like youu.
but .. something seems to be pulling me from stepping into that puddle.
there's an obvious and inevitable distance between us now.
i reaally want to say ilu.
but, im afraid,
insecuure.
i dont know ):
maybe im not ready, and that scar still remains ):
am i worth it ?
i dont think so .
i dont want to be the source of your unhappiness.

JUNJIE .
seeee . i wrote about you .
lol .
see yourr name ?
NAH ! haas.

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TODAY:
STOP, TURN, TAKE A LOOK AROUND.
[ from all the lights and sounds(:]

the road from chua chu kang to queensway is a long and dreary one .
haas .
but sometimes,
its nice to sit down and have a small little road trip [cck to qw long]
just to have a nice talk with family (:
its undeniable that when all else fails,
they'll still be there .
whether you like it or not .
andd .. i LOVE THEM =D

on this trip.
we passed bukit gombak and down the westmall road.
its been awhile since i dropped by there.
i rememberr the long walks from gombak all the way home .
when i used to visit jianming kor at mac.
andd well ..
other stupid things that happened at gombak that i wish to forget. lalala .
yeah . anyways . haas .
blink your eyes and it might already be christmas xD

so, even though your mind may be crammed with the NOWs.
sometimes you just have to stop,
and look at how life's rolling pass you.
maybe looking at it as an outside can be a great eye-opener (:

in the midst of exams .
lala . FINALLY FRIDAY though xD
yay . 3 more days of exams . HEHEHE =D

had emaths and chem today .
DOTS .
dont want to talk about it .
haas .
whats done is done =D

went forr my dental .
he asked me whether i wanted to pluck .
cos he said mine is optional .
then i say NO =D
but he kept ..
indirectly hinting that i should ? haas .
so maybe i will have to . gulps .
betterr to faster get it done andd over with ba .

was actuually planning to go back to school to meet fiqah they all .
but ms wong didnt come today . so no amaths .
andd .. dad wanted me to go home and sleep -_-''
DOTS .
so yeah . im home SUPER DUPER early . haas .

shalini. its good that you're trying to concentrate on your studies.
and you decided to put things on pause for now.
but, just remember that when you press play, you're on the right track (:
before things happen t0o fast for you to catch up .

funny day today .
haas .
though i've been feeling sick all day ):
im trying to use the com to try andd make me feeel more HIGH !! lalaa ~

ourr tables in class are now HAYWIRE . lalaa .
had much free time today though .
raining FISHES AND SQUIDS !
then . azureen . fiqah and me were playing in the rain .
andd .
PLAYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF MR KOH'S CLASS .
the words 'i'll be oberserving your behaviours to see if you are confirmed for the india trip'
flashed through my mind .
andd we all went . OH FISH !

yeah . wasnt feeling well in class .
the stupid fan kept blowing my fridge all over .
SO IRRITATING ! and itchy !
so . i cliped the whole darn thing xD
NERD !! w0ots !

hm .
spent the time telling jokes and ghost stories in class .
didnt do much work =x

after schoool .
was reaally getting quite xinku le .
hadd to do english .
so i REN until after .
then went to toilet andd criedd ):
gosh .

yeah . from there .
studySTUDYstudy until about 9 .
julia. shuni laogong andd me are the survivors !!
jiamin halfway .
got DRUNK on sprite .
andd hadd herr own little performance ^^
haas .

haas . hope that will be ohkay by tomorrow ba .
exams wont pause forr me to get well .
LALALA~

FIRSTLY .
go to http://lightamillioncandles.com/ and light a candle yea (:
got this from claudia laopo's blog .
goGOgo !!

as i watched cinderella story today .
yeah . another reflection (:
brought me back to obs . andd to EVERYTHING .
some people . are just BORN with life ambitions .
or at least they appear that way.

they seem to just know where they want to go .
what they want to do .
andd which road they wanna go down.
and they are so READY to go through thick and thin to get there.
no second thoughts whatsoever.
im envious of their confidence .
i really am.

but . no matter how long i crack my brain .
how much i reflect.
how much i think.
i really dont know what i want to be when grow up.
i really dont know which path i want to go down.

even the simple.
poly, jc or ite ?
i cant even answer you that.

i wish there would be a
'THE BOOK OF ALL THE JOBS IN THE WORLD'
so that i can go andd look through it.

i still remember that zippy toldd me.
that i can be one step closer .
to getting myself more exposed and opened .
to see my options .
then maybe i will be able to find .
i working towards i guess ^^
just dont know how . haas =x

for now . my motivation is to FIND an ambition for myself (:
a long-term goal i can strive for .
LALALA (:

HAAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY !!

spent the day at home studying.
andd watching tv =x
only managed to reaad 5 chapts of chem so far =x
not study . READ only. diaoos.

tried to motivate myself by memorising doing push-ups .
but then .
didnt work -_-"
so . LALALA .

mum andd dad are trying to plan a holiday for us.
but . cann we afford it ?
i dont know .
they saidd . either bangkok orr malaysia .
hope its ohkay forr them ba ..
lalala . dont think t0o much about it le .
haas .

i still got no cluue about the formats and stuuff forr chinese .
DIAO .
tomorrow exam le !
AAAAAAAAAHHHH .

anyways . GOODD LUCK EVERYONE !! =D
cant wait forr this to be over ((:

have to type this entry with onee hand .
because of that CHERIE . type and talk .
nono .

something happened today.
if we made a mistake .
you honestly should have told us ):
instead of just walking away.
leaving us with question marks.
at least, give us a clue.
imagine if someone did that to you ?
but . im reallyREALLY sorry t0o .
i should have known better .
and youu should know us enough to know that we werent trying to make fun of you.
i reaally hope that this doesnt come between us.
our friendships are worth more than this.
at least to me it does.
andd . i dont want things to go for the worse because of this ):
i reallyREALLY dont.
its not worth it.
a miscommunication.

&

hm . im glad that things have improved from yesterday.
at least . better .
hope that there will be no more SUFFERING for you le .
what others think is not as important as how you perceive whats between us .
only time will tell ba.
andd im trying my best (:
really trying my best to figure out my feelings.
anyways.
the kuku forget my url .
so he probably wont read this also . haas .

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